The Chosen: My Emotional Response

Read Time: 3-4 minutes

I am not opposed to crying, and often tell my son that there is nothing wrong with men crying. Granted, one doesn’t need to cry at the drop of a hat, but weeping can be very healthy.

For a couple of years, my close friend Kerr Howell has been telling me about The Chosen. It is available through an app, tells the story of Jesus Christ, and touts the claim: “Created outside of the Hollywood system.” As Kerr knows, I don’t jump out of my seat to watch things produced by and for Christians, because sometimes the “cheesiness” is sickening, just like the predictability and shallowness of contemporary Christian music that often plays on the radio (for those that listen to the radio lol).

However, this was so different. I watched the first episode this morning and the last five minutes broke me. I wept. I then watched the scene with Mary of Magdalene 15 more times, and wept more. I needed to wash my face to refresh my eyes when done, and for those who know me, not much moves me to tears except reflecting on my precious daddy’s tragic death and his loud absence since.

This morning I wept, and I welcomed it. If you have not watched The Chosen, download the app and try the first episode. The first 30 minutes was a little slow for me, and then the ball got rolling.

How did it impact me? Well, it is interesting that I finally watched this the day after a line in C.S. Lewis’ Out of the Silent Planet grabbed me: “Oyarsa sends for you.” An eldil, an angelic figure, speaks to Ransom and he finds out that Oyarsa, a God-like figure in Melecandra, was calling for him and had been drawing him for the longest time. And then today I watch The Chosen and the part about Jesus calling Mary by name, and it broke me in the most wonderful way.

Maybe the Lord is reaching out to me in a fresh way. Maybe the Lord is calling my name as he hasn’t yet done in this new season (unless I am missing something, which is often the case). I am not sure, and don’t want to get all sentimental for the fun of it. Yet, I believe that God calls our name in unique ways, and uses various means to knock on the available and buried doors of the heart. Emotion is good, and I welcome the Lord cracking open the emotional part of my being so that it too is sanctified, redeemed, and open for his impressions and glory.

Anyway, I hope that you go and watch the first episode of The Chosen this week. You won’t regret it.

My Daily Peace: Walks with C.S. Lewis

Read Time: 3 minutes

I work from home, and sometimes I grow very restless. Sometimes I just want to get outside, and at other times I want to log off of work and have some creative time so that I can write, create items for my TpT store, etc. But I have found one thing that is really helping me, and considering so many of us are living different lives due to COVID, you might find this helpful.

Around 2 or 3pm every afternoon, I go for a walk and listen to an audiobook about the life of C.S. Lewis. This is my current focus, and honestly, I think I will stay with writings either about Lewis or by Lewis for the next few months (when listening to audiobooks). He inspires me. The book I am currently reading is by Oxford Don and Theologian Alister McGrath: C. S. Lewis-A Life: Eccentric Genius, Reluctant Prophet. I knew that I would learn a lot, but I had no idea that I would be so inspired. Lewis faced so many obstacles, had to work so hard, dealt with financial struggle, the loss of friends, being overlooked for one academic post after another, and a host of other issues. Yet, he didn’t give up; he worked harder and harder and harder after every setback. He wanted to be a poet, but failed; yet he wrote poetically-flavored prose that has captured the minds and hearts of so many and will continue to do so for generations to come. God had a plan.

At times, I have even fought back tears listening to McGrath’s book. This is a good thing. My heart is stirred to not give up, to not quit praying, to not quit reading, to not quit dreaming, and to not quit writing. God has not put things in me, or you, by accident. He will make a way for all that is in our heart, unless it is not from him; in that case, he will put new desires in our heart (probably the best way to understand the famous phrase in Psalms 34:8). I don’t want to leave anything that God has put in me for him and for others on the table. Nothing wasted.

These are difficult times for so many. COVID has destroyed—or at least interrupted—people’s dreams, livelihoods, relationships, disciplines, and family rhythms. Intentionality is needed more than ever to maintain mental, emotional, relational, and spiritual health. For me, a walk a day keeps insanity away, especially with Lewis in my ear.

So besides my prayerful time in God’s Word most mornings (I do my best), my daily walks—right now with C.S. Lewis—is my daily peace. Now, sometimes I don’t do it because duty calls, or I would rather take my son with me to let him ride his bike. But all in all, I need this 30-45 minute walk. It makes my heart beat. It lifts my eyes above the ordinary grind. It gives my eyes and mind a break from staring at the computer (I work full-time in online education). It reminds me that while my present is full of so many blessings, more is ahead.

So what is your daily peace? Are you doing it? Are you prioritizing it? I hope so.

Yesterday’s Embarrassing Events in the Nation’s Capitol

There is no point recounting the events of yesterday in our nation’s capitol. What a sad day in American history. One of the only highlights is that democracy prevailed by the end of the day, and this is due in large part to the actions of Vice President Mike Pence.

At least the Vice President was willing to clearly condemn the actions of the mob yesterday, as the President of the United States continues to hide and not step up to the plate to address the absolutely immature and wrong behavior of Americans.

I have heard of an absentee father; we are now witnessing an absentee president.

I desire that the President of the United States would take the loss like a mature adult, and lead this country for the few remaining days that he has left. True leadership is needed, and Mike Pence did a fine job yesterday, especially in his statement as the Senate convened.

I cannot help but to think of my son. We love to play games where one of us wins and the other loses. Winning is exciting and rewarding, and I let him rejoice when he does. However, the other lesson is not so easy: losing with a good attitude. How do I celebrate the other person and what they have accomplished even when I lose? How do I respect the person who has defeated me? How do I walk in humility and simply admit, “I have been beaten” when it occurs? These are questions that we all have to face. It is sad that the President of the United States is not setting a good example.

Was their voter fraud? I am sure. How could there not be? But to the measure of almost seven million votes (Biden with 81,283,485 of the popular vote versus Trump with 74,223,744 of the popular vote)? That is hard for me to believe.

I am grateful for the voice of Vice President Mike Pence yesterday. He was clear and firm. He condemned immoral and atrocious behavior. And he lead a process that ultimately finalized even his removing from office. That is an example that my kid can follow.

~An American citizen and dad

Note: Someone has just informed me that President Trump did condemn the mob’s actions on Twitter, but Twitter removed the post. However, this is not good enough. As the President, you can go on live TV at any point and condemn this in a more forthright manner. Twitter is not enough; we need our nation’s leader speaking out like Mike Pence did.

Church, Online Giving, & What Your Kids May Be Missing

I get paid once a month, and as a family, we give a certain percentage to our local church as our way of investing in what God is doing in, among, around, and through us in Edinburgh. Though I don’t believe that tithing is a command in the New Covenant (I agree with Wayne Grudem, Sam Storms, and several other evangelical theologians on this matter), I do believe in giving significantly, even sacrificially, to the local church, and find it hard to believe that anyone who claims to wholeheartedly love Jesus can choose to not give. After all, how does one love Jesus but not care for his future bride?


Anyway, I have had the following thought lately: if we are not intentional in our online giving to the church, then our kids will grow up never knowing that we are actually giving on a consistent basis. So, for all of us that are using online giving or paying at kiosks in local churches, we need to find creative ways to involve our children. It would be a shame to give as a family on a consistent basis but do so in a way that our kids never see it. As adults, we are called not just to obey Christ in our giving, but to also make disciples. When Jesus talks about giving in hiding in Matthew 6, I seriously doubt that he was talking about our kids, yet if we are not careful, that is exactly what we will do. They will never see us supporting the local church with our hard-earned money.

So give, but be in intentional, and allow your kids to see every dime!

Disconnecting: steps that I am taking

shutterstock_310726148I am thinking more and more about how my phone can be such a nuisance, or most honestly, a thief. I can check email when I sit down on the computer. This will make more more intentional. I seldom use my twitter account. The computer will work for that as well. I like Instagram, but don’t use it much. I will leave it on my phone for now. I already removed the Facebook app several weeks ago. I have not missed it a bit.
By taking things off of my phone, I am attempting to turn it into a phone that is not so “smart.” Use it for calls. Use it for texts. Use the Lothian bus app to go places. Use it for GPS when driving. But all of the rest? I want peace. And even more, I want to be more present when I am walking around, standing in queues, playing with my kids (which I usually do a good job of leaving devices on my desk), connecting and worshipping at church, talking with my wife, or going for a walk.
Let’s be honest: people are not lined up to see what is going on in my life. That is okay. Also, most people are only using social media to try and impress others. Insecure? Can we not feel important and valuable without letting others know what is going on? God is watching and he cares (Psalms 139 and Matthew 6:1-18 are great reflection points): isn’t that good enough?
I have just taken the following steps: 
  1. All email apps removed from phone. I will now have to check the computer for email which requires greater intentionality.
  2. Work email is also removed from my phone. I must use a computer for this also.
  3. I will use my blog more and social media less.
  4. Because I live internationally, I will keep my FB messenger app; it enables me to text my brother and other friends for free.
  5. I will not use social media platforms out of a motivation to “stay relevant.” If I want to use them in a way that is meaningful, fine. If I want to use them to communicate, that is okay. But I will not have it at my fingertips inviting me, out of guilt or a need of influence or a feeling that I will be a dinosaur if I disconnect, to use it when I do not want to.

Ahhhh, I feel better already. I have a feeling that this is the first of many blogs on this subject. I want to know the Lord, enjoy beauty, listen and talk with people, and not have the minute-by-minute interruptions that literally suck the “life” out of life.

Be less important: disconnect!